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On Mon, 14 Feb 2000 22:31:26 -0500 (EST), damod…@webtv.net wrote:

Good luck Damo. Well just to confirm, i stink "after" badminton but whilst playing, i’m gradually getting a little better. example – i learned not to smash the damn thing all the time and do "clever" lob shots that "just" drop the other side of the net before the opponent can react But i’d rather be talking the meaning of life to my CPN having coffee afterwards though – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text ->Next post from the ego driven and vain Damodara will be AFTER I play >again tomorrow night. >I have reclaimed my balance. >Although….I’m experiancing some positive symptoms……. >Must be the CIA controlled psychics or whateer…… >shrug. >Who knows right? >Space aliens it is maybe. >Shit maybe have a darn whole bloody chorus up there with me right? >Four part harmonies??? >So I’ll post when I return tomorrow evening. >Just to exhibit my vanity to my supprt group. >And I will…I will think of alt sz and how wonderful we all are. >Cept stephen stinks at badmitton I heard. >That ain’t true is it Stephen? >Okay so I’m deffinately up for this. >See yas… >Damo >P.S. >and I will be introduced as "Damo". >And you do all share in any glory I gather.

regards, Stephen "All truth passes through 3 stages. First, it is ridiculed. Second, it is violently opposed. Third, it is accepted as being self-evident." — Arthur Schopenhauer

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Hi Stephen, When I used to play badminton I used to be know for my little lob shots that would just clear the net. Those are the real finesse shots. Frank. Stephen <wibblytea…@yahoo.co.uk> wrote in message

news:dhiias4cth12b51cqa4tbtg0ov6ofg1bt4@4ax.com… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> On Mon, 14 Feb 2000 22:31:26 -0500 (EST), damod…@webtv.net wrote: > Good luck Damo. > Well just to confirm, i stink "after" badminton > but whilst playing, i’m gradually getting a little better. > example – i learned not to smash the damn thing all the time and do > "clever" lob shots that "just" drop the other side of the net before > the opponent can react > But i’d rather be talking the meaning of life to my CPN having coffee > afterwards though > >Next post from the ego driven and vain Damodara will be AFTER I play > >again tomorrow night. > >I have reclaimed my balance. > >Although….I’m experiancing some positive symptoms……. > >Must be the CIA controlled psychics or whateer…… > >shrug. > >Who knows right? > >Space aliens it is maybe. > >Shit maybe have a darn whole bloody chorus up there with me right? > >Four part harmonies??? > >So I’ll post when I return tomorrow evening. > >Just to exhibit my vanity to my supprt group. > >And I will…I will think of alt sz and how wonderful we all are. > >Cept stephen stinks at badmitton I heard. > >That ain’t true is it Stephen? > >Okay so I’m deffinately up for this. > >See yas… > >Damo > >P.S. > >and I will be introduced as "Damo". > >And you do all share in any glory I gather. > regards, Stephen > "All truth passes through 3 stages. > First, it is ridiculed. > Second, it is violently opposed. > Third, it is accepted as being self-evident." > — Arthur Schopenhauer

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I guess the most important developement tonight was a change in my perspective from grading myself and comparing others to a realization and feeling that I was simply another of the entertaners. I was much more candid and my ole’ friend and former agent/promotor of mine commented on my increase in "presence" on stage. So…..I’m not in a rush anynore. Won’t be shaking hands with the "promoter" I met week before last. Think I should just calm down…breath deep to moyself…and just keep gettng up on tuesday nights for a measely 15 minutes. Got the drug like energy surges especially afterwards. Had nice time. Didn’t have to win anything. Think I should just keep playing there for a while until I evolve a little more with this. This is whats happened. It ain’t a lot of glory but what there is can be passed around a litte before it melts. Need time to grow. I don’t want a serious gig. No. Not what I want to do yet. Damo

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damod…@webtv.net wrote: > I guess the most important developement tonight was a change in my > perspective from grading myself and comparing others to a realization > and feeling that I was simply another of the entertaners. > I was much more candid and my ole’ friend and former agent/promotor of > mine commented on my increase in "presence" on stage. > So…..I’m not in a rush anynore. > Won’t be shaking hands with the "promoter" I met week before last. > Think I should just calm down…breath deep to moyself…and just keep > gettng up on tuesday nights for a measely 15 minutes. > Got the drug like energy surges especially afterwards. > Had nice time. > Didn’t have to win anything.

hey damo. im so happy that youre even doing it. i think its the coolest. what you wrote here made me think of some things……. i hope you dont mind me rambling about them….. i dont know if you remember that i was pretty deeply involved in the music scene with the grateful dead… i was pretty much on the road with them incessantly for well over ten years… saw a lot of shows….. and there was so much about life, and zen and philosophy within just what they did, just how they were, on stage, every show was always always totally different…. and, sometimes it was magic, and sometimes it was so overwhelming that you couldnt even walk straight. sometimes it was just a boring show. they never apologized though becuase they were on a journey, through a landscape… they saw their music, their language, as a landscape through which they traveled in their search for ‘that moment’ of perfect grateful deadness. which of course they would never reach just as you can never reach enlightenment, but still you try, becuase there just isnt anything else fucking to do with life really, and the days you come close just feel sooooo GOOD!!!!! :-}} here we are. and so we search. but, it is still a journey. so… im seeing your recent exploits into this music scene as kind of the same thing… i think the power and voice you are finding, is the voice of us, and all the people who were with you in the war and all… you are giving those people (who deserve and do not get respect in general) a voice…. its a powerful passionate and really true voice, that is why the people responded so well, thats what i think. and so… in finding this voice… and the other voices that may or may not be expressing themselves through you…. you are exploring a landscape… some days it will be boring and dry, some days it will be so incredible and breathtaking. jerry also said once that a persons relationship to drugs is like their relationship to sex…. it is that individual and personal… and i think that also extends to artwork and expression… you are develping a relationship with this music.. sometimes it will blow you out with passion and sometimes just ho-hum…. but always, something you love anyway…. doesnt always have to be passionate to be worthwhile :)) anyway i wanna support you in exporing your landscape any way it feels good to you…. changing, adapting, evolving. slow or fast. the audience will come along if they want… and if what you are talking about is something real and powerful, even if you are relaxed about it, i believe they will….. i wish i was there so i could dance. what do you play?? i wanna hear some raucus old protest songs. some bluesy dance music. my favorite songs that jerry used to play….. ‘reuben and cerise’ and those dylan songs, "tangled up in blue"….. i think that is my favorite song EVER!!!!! keep us posted plsszzee.. anna > I don’t want a serious gig. > No. > Not what I want to do yet. > Damo

– —————————— ‘the softest of all soft things overrides the hardest of things….’ — i ching "blessed am i to dwell in this beautiful temple" ~~~~~~~~~ rainbows ~~~~~~~~~~

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damod…@webtv.net wrote: > Seriously Sande…if you only knew the landslide of problems facing me > you would be astounded I’m still waking and talking.

I have read what you’ve posted about your nightmares with the S*cial Security Administration. What a mess; I feel helpless to suggest anything. It’s quite unfair that *they* didn’t catch the mistake (if there was one) years ago, and yet try to hold *you* responsible for accumulated payments. If they were humane, they’d realize the stressful predicament you face is *torture*, (especially with your illness! Surely they are aware of that. How do they justify putting you under such pressure?) and admit their own mistake. I hope you have a reasonably intelligent and decent lawyer. > But by the graces of my yoga practice I am able to process my experiance > .respond somewhat effectively…sing on stage once a week…. > My problems are so severe and so syncrostancial in their order that I > have found it wisest to not discus my "real world" problems with my > closest confidants. > They actually become so upset and full of disbelief that it only > presents me with another problem.

Quite a dilemma…I have faced similar. Sometimes it seems that the very people who could *best* give you comfort, or *really* understand, are the same ones who feel things so deeply, (whether or not they are "involved", they are impacted) that you end up feeling cruel for unburdening yourself! > It’s difficult to continue when you can see no light at the end of the > tunnel. I’m sure meny of us carry this load. But as I read once in some > Sikh scripture…Make your allegiance with God only because all human > allegiance is subject to death and decay. It said something like that.

Sounds similar to a verse in the Hebrew scriptures: "Do not put your trust in nobles, nor in the son of earthling man, to whom no salvation belongs. His breath goes out, he returns to the dust, in that very day his thoughts perish. Happy is he whose help in in the God of Jacob." "…like the grass they will wither away" in Psalm 37 is a good one, too. > So my faith as groundless as it may seem to those who are not "God > oriented" is my only support. > Thus I will do my yoga then drag my weary ass out the door and go > through some more bearucratic B.S. wth God inspired resistance.

I’m sure many of us here are with you in spirit. > Thus > whatever the outcome I will have played my part out and will have peace > in myself at the end. > The victory belongs to the divinity to give to who he chooses. I won’t > second guess the outcome. > And I will appy myself fully as I can to the "now"..the immediacy of my > experiance…in the moment as you suggest…wih no concern for the > fruits of my labors.

It’s a wonderful gift to be able to fully live in the moment. I strive for it but have great difficulty. Too distractible… past, future, thoughts and feelings. A constant battle. > I will be attached to my labors…which I owe God….the fruits are his > gifts to distribute according to his will. Me? I will try to play my > part in this amazing system of creation with it’s pain and glories until > I die as a Good Soldier.

"I have fought the fine fight, I have run the course to the finish, I have observed the faith"…all we can do is our best, and that will be good enough. > St Martin…St George…St Barbara….warriors all. I will keep my > allegiance. And I will play and sing in the meanwhile as David played > and sang. And perhaps I will have the incredibl thrill of David in > victory Dancing naked at the head of his victorious army as he > re-entered Jerusalem. Crazy David.Can you even imagine the victory he > experianced to do that? Led his victorious army home by dancing naked in > joy as they entered Jerusalem?

I hope to meet David one day; a fascinating character…made many, many mistakes, but what a player. A heart of gold, and a poet, too > Now……I have to go meet more difficult people and bang on locked > doors and press against stonewalls. And be angry and firm as I rail > against injustice and fight for truth. > Heavy trip heh?

Live with intensity, bloom where you’re planted. They angels watch with fascination, and stand by, ready to help. > I gotta be a little wierd I’m a wacko

"But we’re never gonna survive, unless…we get a little crazy." > and I’ve found > moral justification for Viet nam. Like Lou. > Now…….into the fray once more my brave boys…….. > Time to demonstrate valour. > Damodara

Go get ‘em. Peace, Sandie — For info about this service, see http://www.twwells.com/anon/ or e-mail: h…@anon.twwells.com — for an automatically returned help message ad…@anon.twwells.com – for the service’s administrator ano…@anon.twwells.com — anonymous mail to the administrator

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rainbows wrote: > those dylan > songs, "tangled up in blue"….. > i think that is my favorite song EVER!!!!!

I don’t have a favorite song, but "tangled up in blue" is a good one! Sandie — For info about this service, see http://www.twwells.com/anon/ or e-mail: h…@anon.twwells.com — for an automatically returned help message ad…@anon.twwells.com – for the service’s administrator ano…@anon.twwells.com — anonymous mail to the administrator

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Seriously Sande…if you only knew the landslide of problems facing me you would be astounded I’m still waking and talking. But by the graces of my yoga practice I am able to process my experiance .respond somewhat effectively…sing on stage once a week…. My problems are so severe and so syncrostancial in their order that I have found it wisest to not discus my "real world" problems with my closest confidants. They actually become so upset and full of disbelief that it only presents me with another problem. It’s difficult to continue when you can see no light at the end of the tunnel. I’m sure meny of us carry this load. But as I read once in some Sikh scripture…Make your allegiance with God only because all human allegiance is subject to death and decay. It said something like that. So my faith as groundless as it may seem to those who are not "God oriented" is my only support. Thus I will do my yoga then drag my weary ass out the door and go through some more bearucratic B.S. wth God inspired resistance. Thus whatever the outcome I will have played my part out and will have peace in myself at the end. The victory belongs to the divinity to give to who he chooses. I won’t second guess the outcome. And I will appy myself fully as I can to the "now"..the immediacy of my experiance…in the moment as you suggest…wih no concern for the fruits of my labors. I will be attached to my labors…which I owe God….the fruits are his gifts to distribute according to his will. Me? I will try to play my part in this amazing system of creation with it’s pain and glories until I die as a Good Soldier. St Martin…St George…St Barbara….warriors all. I will keep my allegiance. And I will play and sing in the meanwhile as David played and sang. And perhaps I will have the incredibl thrill of David in victory Dancing naked at the head of his victorious army as he re-entered Jerusalem. Crazy David.Can you even imagine the victory he experianced to do that? Led his victorious army home by dancing naked in joy as they entered Jerusalem? Now……I have to go meet more difficult people and bang on locked doors and press against stonewalls. And be angry and firm as I rail against injustice and fight for truth. Heavy trip heh? I gotta be a little wierd I’m a wacko and I’ve found moral justification for Viet nam. Like Lou. Now…….into the fray once more my brave boys…….. Time to demonstrate valour. Damodara

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If you can be in the moment, fully present, that’s real. Keep growing, and enjoy your music. Sandie — For info about this service, see http://www.twwells.com/anon/ or e-mail: h…@anon.twwells.com — for an automatically returned help message ad…@anon.twwells.com – for the service’s administrator ano…@anon.twwells.com — anonymous mail to the administrator

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H Bow. I did an old Tom Paxton song from the sixties.."Can’t help but wonder where I’m bound." I was playing to the audience with that one as meny there are young young. Not just young. I found out that some are not even of drinking age. Being as the Bar is in the other room the age restrictions don’t apply to it as a place that sells alcohol and having minors present. I’ll post the words later. And I did "Once I led thelife of a millionaire"…or is it called "Nobody loves you when you’re down and out". It’s an old standard and it’s blues. I notice that the pressure of the attention actually seems to purge me of "non-self" pesences. I was noticing this contest within as I was getting ready and tuning up. Like the prssure from the outside was dispacing the presnce on the inside. I noticed a little struggle there taking place. I wasn’t involved incidently. I public I am only in observe or ignore mode as far as symptoms go. Perhaps you know I believe in some kind of "psychic" aspect to my differences from the normals. (Nutcse manners rule #one. "Never hold your head in public") Experiances like this seem to confirm tat belief. But…belief changes very easily. I just go by experiance. It’s good theropy to play for a crowd. I was also reaching quite pointedly, previously, for attention. You know eye contact and body movements..gestures to focus their attention..volume changes.. and last night I was not so concerned. I just got up and played. I talk a little too. I told folks not to tell anybody about the place because we have such a good talent pool and that the room is full so we should keep the place a secret from others. I praised the quality of the performers and how amazed I’d been about that in my four nights of playing. Nice lady played too who had that warmth and wholeness that can only be possessed by a woman over forty. I wanted to talk with her bu often have Stephen’s problem with small talk especially when the "power" is turned on. I’m actually quite worried about someone getting my head and talking to me. Then I have to pa mind to what they say and it is unnice cause so much becomes "stupid" to me when I get "turned on" when I’m in that environment. Nice warm well aged face and so full a persn. Love those older babes. Most of the chickies there are cute little girls whose lemon sized breasts tent soft cotton shirts. Nice to have around but I hav no real interest in slandering myself with such creatures. Nice to have around though they are. There is no creature on earth however who has the compassion or tenderness of an old babe. It’s a mercy from God I think that the oldr you get the more attactive the older women become. Which kinda fills the suggestion I’ve gotten from recent relationship efforts that I’m really looking for a mother and not an "adult" relationship. I think thats right. I want dependence. Interdependence. And emotional succor. Yes. Screw this "adult" complete to yourselves relationship crap that woman have handed me these last so meny years. It’s my emotions and my hungers if it’s nieve or juvenile then so be it. Course…..sometimes when I see those lemon tips kinda wiggle beneath those soft cotton shirts I can get real curious about that too. Almost like a mouse was under the shirt instead kinda wiggling around. I’m off topic. She was too jazz oriented I thought. Hiding beneath those crisply strummed chords and singing measured rthymes. So I played…had no problems. Damo

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Next post from the ego driven and vain Damodara will be AFTER I play again tomorrow night. I have reclaimed my balance. Although….I’m experiancing some positive symptoms……. Must be the CIA controlled psychics or whateer…… shrug. Who knows right? Space aliens it is maybe. Shit maybe have a darn whole bloody chorus up there with me right? Four part harmonies??? So I’ll post when I return tomorrow evening. Just to exhibit my vanity to my supprt group. And I will…I will think of alt sz and how wonderful we all are. Cept stephen stinks at badmitton I heard. That ain’t true is it Stephen? Okay so I’m deffinately up for this. See yas… Damo P.S. and I will be introduced as "Damo". And you do all share in any glory I gather.

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Good luck Damo! Break a leg! Frank. <damod…@webtv.net> wrote in message

news:4249-38A8C88E-92@storefull-617.iap.bryant.webtv.net… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Next post from the ego driven and vain Damodara will be AFTER I play > again tomorrow night. > I have reclaimed my balance. > Although….I’m experiancing some positive symptoms……. > Must be the CIA controlled psychics or whateer…… > shrug. > Who knows right? > Space aliens it is maybe. > Shit maybe have a darn whole bloody chorus up there with me right? > Four part harmonies??? > So I’ll post when I return tomorrow evening. > Just to exhibit my vanity to my supprt group. > And I will…I will think of alt sz and how wonderful we all are. > Cept stephen stinks at badmitton I heard. > That ain’t true is it Stephen? > Okay so I’m deffinately up for this. > See yas… > Damo > P.S. > and I will be introduced as "Damo". > And you do all share in any glory I gather.

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