Activism Change

this day will be bad

Question:

big apologies for not giving adequate attention to my friends here and their difficulties.  i care.  i will try to come back later, maybe this evening, and talk with you about things.     i am sorry that i am so totally consumed with my own difficulties that i neglect to express care and attempt to comfort people for whom i care and care deeply.     Today I will be taking some definitive action re: the situations I face that cause me so much trouble.  I can’t risk going into details. But iImust convey that i am terrified.  Ii don’t know what i’m doing; iI don’t know whom to trust and about what to terust whom.  iI am consfuresd and scared and running out of time.  i am confused even about trusting my own self.     iIfeel like a child , like i remember feeling when i was a child.  i feell like i remembe feeking whe in when i was a child and i was trerrified of my parents and/or people they associated with but , being that i was so young and ignorant and vulneralbe and not even within arm’s reach of any sort of knowledge of sefl-empowwerment or any rights that i might hage as a human being let alone the concept of human rights, when i was a child i was dependent upon theose who hurt me.  and now i feel the same way.  i feel that if i do something to assert my rights, now that i know i have them, to protect myself, that i will be punichsed and lose people upon whom i depend and then i will be lost forever and forever unable to reclaim or rebuild or not only re-establish a life for myself, but just to establish a life for myself.  so i am even thrown into doubt regarding what my rights are or if i have any or even if there are rights that come along with being human.  are there?  who gives them to us?  if they are something that we give ourselves with our own law making and codification of behavior, then they are alosso something that can be taken away, quickly and easily, aren’t they.  and they are, on a grand scale, now being dismantled around the golobe, right, by the poi9  likes of as*croft and rmsf*eld and who’s that f[b]bi guy, and ywell, you know the troupe.  so what do my rights matter as a , gawd i cannot stand this term of reference for me, "mental health consumer"    what if all of us dissoids going running amuchk and consume all of the mental health in the world? hey, not a bad idea.  how about it.  if we get it all, themn while the war-mongering imperialists use their weaposn of mass destruction against the people in the desert whom are only accused of having such an arsenal, we can easily stop them because they will be confused and dempeendent upon the peopl e who have the mental healt.  and we will have to traint them on how to contain their anger — like keeping it in silos and even dismantling it and analyzing it and seeing what emotions are behind it, what drives their anger, and getting them to confront gttheir own greed and hunger for power. yes, let us consume all of the mental health. meanwhile, i have no rights, do i. spoiler for graphic metaphorical image: : : : :: : : : : : :: : :: :: : : : : : :: :: : : : i will be screwed the walls today and tortured with whips and acid. becasue today i dare to question that which has run/managed/controled my life for several years now, and that which does not want to let go that control. i think my fear will be my uoown own undoing.  i’ve been sleep deprived for days and alsayws conflicted and terrified. i have lost my lfie.  no need for s**cde.  i am the dead walkignthe earth now.  empty and ruined and haunting those who live, hoping to experienec something of that which is able to awe and thrill — life– vicariously. help Willa — For info about this service, see http://anon.twwells.com/help/ or e-mail:

Response:

You are brave to stand up for yourself.  It is different than when you were a child.  Children basically have no rights, imo.  Adults do have some, even if they get v*olated a lot.  Children don’t know what rights are.  You do, so you have the ability to fight for them.  E-mail me if you want to- just put soemthing I’ll recognize in the header so I don’t automatically delete. -Nancy

Response:

Filed under: Human Rights

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