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deep ache longing

Question:

Debbie, I share your dream. All I want is a family of my own and people to love and care for too. Fuck that feminist shite – i just want to love and be loved. Don’t give up… love Nikki – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – for a family. i hate these days. who am i trying to kid that it’s ever gonna happen? me having a man who loves me, loves our children. wants to spend time with us, together. wants more than a quick fuck every day and to get drunk with his mates. a real home full of friends where other children are welcomed and not just seen as annoying noise and mess. where there is real love and life and warmth? where if some-ones got a problem they are welcome to stay. oh i know there’s me and my son but sometimes i would just like to share it with some-one you know? have some-one to laugh with, to cuddle up to, to share life with. good and bad. i’ve done it myself, i’ve tried to make it work. i’ve had years of memories that no-one can take from me. but at the end of the day there’s no-one to share them with. what is so wrong about wanting a family? it’s all i’ve ever wanted from life. oh it’s so hard to go through all this again, and how do you ever know if things will work out? i tried for eleven years and it failed. i can’t go through this again it will finish me. why is life so full of crap? and why the hell won’t people tell you what they want? instead of pretending for years and then turning round to throw it all back in your face and blame you for their mess? i hate this. maybe i’m better off alone. i just don’t know any more. i do know i’m lonely and that’s a dangerous situation to be in because i may start grasping at straws. why don’t i just get desperate tattooed on my forehead. or a t-shirt saying please love me. oh i’m pathetic. oh feminists must love me. all this freedom and all i want is a husband, children and hundreds of pets. noise, mess, life. right i’ll go and sob some more. debbie

– "Life is like a train. You expect delays from time to time. But not a derailment" Willie Stargell Before you buy.

Response:

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – for a family. i hate these days. who am i trying to kid that it’s ever gonna happen? me having a man who loves me, loves our children. wants to spend time with us, together. wants more than a quick fuck every day and to get drunk with his mates. a real home full of friends where other children are welcomed and not just seen as annoying noise and mess. where there is real love and life and warmth? where if some-ones got a problem they are welcome to stay. oh i know there’s me and my son but sometimes i would just like to share it with some-one you know? have some-one to laugh with, to cuddle up to, to share life with. good and bad. i’ve done it myself, i’ve tried to make it work. i’ve had years of memories that no-one can take from me. but at the end of the day there’s no-one to share them with. what is so wrong about wanting a family? it’s all i’ve ever wanted from life. oh it’s so hard to go through all this again, and how do you ever know if things will work out? i tried for eleven years and it failed. i can’t go through this again it will finish me. why is life so full of crap? and why the hell won’t people tell you what they want? instead of pretending for years and then turning round to throw it all back in your face and blame you for their mess? i hate this. maybe i’m better off alone. i just don’t know any more. i do know i’m lonely and that’s a dangerous situation to be in because i may start grasping at straws. why don’t i just get desperate tattooed on my forehead. or a t-shirt saying please love me. oh i’m pathetic. oh feminists must love me. all this freedom and all i want is a husband, children and hundreds of pets. noise, mess, life. right i’ll go and sob some more. debbie

Debbie, this is not deparation this is connecting with you humanity. Few know I have a same longing, so deep is this longing  that my soul shivers at the coldness of "that" kind of lonliness.  Being alone is one thing, it is "acceptable", but to feel such unfulfilled longing for something *real* and sustainable well nothing can soothe that pain.  Well I can hold onto this dream. May your wish be granted.      Featuring the worlds only Anonymous Usenet Server

Response:

for a family. i hate these days. who am i trying to kid that it’s ever gonna happen? me having a man who loves me, loves our children. wants to spend time with us, together. wants more than a quick fuck every day and to get drunk with his mates. a real home full of friends where other children are welcomed and not just seen as annoying noise and mess. where there is real love and life and warmth? where if some-ones got a problem they are welcome to stay. oh i know there’s me and my son but sometimes i would just like to share it with some-one you know? have some-one to laugh with, to cuddle up to, to share life with. good and bad. i’ve done it myself, i’ve tried to make it work. i’ve had years of memories that no-one can take from me. but at the end of the day there’s no-one to share them with. what is so wrong about wanting a family? it’s all i’ve ever wanted from life. oh it’s so hard to go through all this again, and how do you ever know if things will work out? i tried for eleven years and it failed. i can’t go through this again it will finish me. why is life so full of crap? and why the hell won’t people tell you what they want? instead of pretending for years and then turning round to throw it all back in your face and blame you for their mess? i hate this. maybe i’m better off alone. i just don’t know any more. i do know i’m lonely and that’s a dangerous situation to be in because i may start grasping at straws. why don’t i just get desperate tattooed on my forehead. or a t-shirt saying please love me. oh i’m pathetic. oh feminists must love me. all this freedom and all i want is a husband, children and hundreds of pets. noise, mess, life. right i’ll go and sob some more. debbie

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